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The Posthumous Release of Quilt Floor Shows We Still Need Mama Zu

It may have taken the combination of a global pandemic and a broken finger from a dog attack, Linwood Regensberg finally found time to finish Jesse Zazu’s final album. Quilt Floor spans a range from folk to punk and features sharp feminist and political lyrics.

The former Those Darlins bandmates were working on a new project, tentatively titled Mama Zu, before Zazu’s untimely death from cervical cancer in 2017 at only 28. The album was something that at first, Regensberg was reluctant to return to. 

“When Jessi passed away it was shocking because no one in our circle thought it would happen,” Regensber said. “Even when things looked bad she would bounce back. I would get stressed out about what the toll might be of having to suffer through something that’s going to make you feel things. You get over all these little speed bumps and traumas and stuff along the way.”

While it took seven years to release, Quilt Floor is sadly just as relevant today as it was at the beginning of the Trump era. “Emotional Warrior” is about the man himself, though the thin line between making crass jokes about sexual and acting on it explored on “Make a Joke” may have just as much to do with him. 

Zazu and Regensberg switch genres effortlessly from the Bangles-esque sound of “Make a Joke” to the slower country tune “Guitar World,” which criticizes the sexism present in Nashville. Again, the album is seven years old but hasn’t aged a day. 

“She’d ask a question and they’d talk to her like she’s a child or they’re looking over at me,” Regensberg said of their time in a Guitar World. “It’s comical in a way because it’s so absurd. But somebody who’s working at the guitar store is going to talk down to someone who’s on tour and selling tickets.”

Zazu’s lyrics are feisty, funny, and always happy to punch up. Besides Trump and sexism, Zazu targets topics as small as someone who won’t shut up and as large as capitalism. 

“I was always really jealous of how good she was with lyrics,” Regensberg said. “She could cut the fat out of things and get to a point. In songwriting it’s really tough to do especially on topical things. She could sum things up in a way that was both poignant and kind of funny. She’s somebody that stands for truth and fairness and treating people with kindness. And anything that doesn’t fall in line with that she’s going to speak out.”

A viewpoint like that is still necessary in 2024. Zazu was never more fierce than as Mama Zu and it’s tragic to know it’s never coming back. Regensberg’s reluctance to work on finishing the album came in large part due to his busy touring schedule with other fantastic indie-Americana acts like Low Cut Connie and Tristan. It also had to do with the difficulty of exploring the emotions of that loss and the awkwardness of making changes to the art of someone who isn’t there to defend it. But ultimately, he didn’t regret it.

“Some feelings will come back and maybe it’ll bring some tears,” he said. “But at the same time the joy was bigger than everything else. This is one way I can spend time with somebody that’s gone.”

Above is the full episode as aired on WUSB’s Country Pocket, including both my interview with Linwood Regensberg and the songs we discussed, starting with Four Leaf Clover, a cover song on which he duets with Zazu. The interview begins with the second video in the playlist. You can hear the show live every Monday at 11am on WUSB 90.1 FM or check the blog to watch it as a YouTube playlist. Visit http://www.WUSB.fm and https://mamazu.bandcamp.com for more.

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Married Duo take on Love and Country with World Brand New

When Ty Greenstein’s Girlyman and Ingrid Elizabeth’s Coyote Grace began touring together, they formed a relationship. When their respective bands broke up, the two women did not. What followed was a marriage, newly allowed by the Supreme Court at the time, and the formation of their own duo, Mouths of Babes

World Brand New, the album that came out of it all, is unsurprisingly full of love songs. They range from the borderline twee “I Do” to the sad and disoriented “Pictures of You.” It’s an album divided into two parts, with the first eight songs discussing relationships in some way and the last two taking on politics from a fresh angle.

Of the love songs, two with nearly opposite moods are especially striking. 

“Summertime” celebrates queer love in a rural setting. It’s both a completely typical country love song when it references crops, bugs, country legends and trucks. But it’s something altogether different with the line “boys like her,”  a reference to an Ivan Coyote book, and discussion of how the locals gave them funny looks.

“There are queer people everywhere including in the smallest little backwater towns and they’re finding a way to live and love and thrive best they can,” said Elizabeth, describing her type as “grown up tomboys” 

The other, “Except for the Love,” is sung from the perspective of an older man nearing death and reflecting on how love was the only truly important thing in his life. Greenstein said she based the tearjerker on her grandparents’ relationship. 

“My grandfather suffered from dementia. He really declined but he still had that intense love for her and every time she walked into room he’d smile. He never forgot who she was.”

The politics don’t take up nearly as much time, but they wind up leaving just as much of an impact. “My Country” is a spectacular and wide-ranging pep talk that both levels with the struggles America has been facing while simultaneously holding out immense hope for a return to normalcy. 

“My approach in writing the song is to speak to the country the way I would speak to a friend who was looking worse for the wear,” said Greenstein, who admits “I have all this anger about the progress we haven’t seen yet and all the ways this country has failed us”

Still, she felt a more frustrated view on the situation that were as skeptical of the notion of American ideals as I am wasn’t warranted. 

“To be hopeless would be so strange because it would dishonor everyone who came before us and did have hope and made the progress we now benefit from,” she said.  

The final track, a Holly Near cover, is the source of that attitude and a perfect companion to the earlier original. It’s fascinating to hear something as deeply personal as faith in our government (or anything, for that matter) to be framed as morally correct for the collective and perhaps the only way I could get myself to believe that America’s best days are ahead. It’s still a tough sell, but certainly one worth aspiring to.

Above is the full episode as aired on WUSB’s Country Pocket, including both my interview with Ty and Ingrid and the songs we discussed, starting with Summertime, which blends country tropes with queer romance. The interview begins with the second video in the playlist. You can hear the show live every Monday at 11am on WUSB 90.1 FM or check the blog to watch it as a YouTube playlist. Visit http://www.WUSB.fm and https://www.mouthsofbabesmusic.com for more.

Press photo by Sophie Spinelle, Shameless Photography

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Malcom MacWatt Recounts a History of Injustice and Response on Dark Harvest

Songwriter Malcolm MacWatt mined the history of Scotland, the UK, and the United States for injustices on scales small and epic. One moment, he’s getting into the specifics of whether a tax break meant to bring local vegetation back to Scotland is just, another he’s covering the emotions a woman born to an enslaved mother and the white man who holds her in bondage. 

The beauty of  MacWatt’s songwriting is that it’s all more complicated than it seems. The support for the environment is lining the pockets of wealthy landowners; the woman, performed by Angeline Morrison, feels both love and scorn for her father. 

“I think the Scots have always had this idea of social justice” said MacWatt, who grew up across a small body of water from where Scottish highlanders were evicted from their land so that landlords’ sheep could graze there. “I suppose being a colony of England, there’s been that very long history of right and wrong. It’s been engrained into me, especially by my grandmother.”

The title track tells a remarkable story of environmental protest taken to the furthest possible extreme. After Gruinard Island is used for biological weapons testing in the Second World War, the British government allows it to remain contaminated rather than go through the expense of cleaning it up. A group of still unidentified scientists changed that by transplanting some of the contaminated soil to mainland government locations. The act may well have been environmental terrorism, but MacWatt is still a supporter.

“That idea of direct action for the benefit of the whole country, I was very down with that.” MacWatt said. “It’s always a balance of moralities. At the end of the day, I think if they hadn’t shown a willingness to take action that could border on terrorism, I think we’d have ended up having nuclear waste dumped in Scotland.”

Recent events in Europe and the States have shown that the types of injustice referenced in songs like “The Church and The Crown” could once again be the norm in parts of the world that have made so much progress. The song references Wat Tyler, John Ball and the Peasant’s Revolt, an uprising based in part on the notion that royals were no more favored in the eyes of God than ordinary men.

“It all ended badly for the peasants and since then, nothing’s really changed that much for working people in this country,” MacWatt said. “I think when I was first writing this album, I did not set out to write such a heavy and grim album. There’s songs that I wrote as protest songs but they ended up a lot more resigned in tone. I feel powerless in the face of all this conflict going around.” 

If there’s any hope to hang onto, it shows up in “Semi Scotsman.” MacWatt identifies that way because he is mixed race, though he was born to one Scottish parent and was raised there. In it, MacWatt wishes for an independent Scotland to at last become a reality.

“What I love about the Scotts is that there’s a stoic sense of just getting on with it, and like the Irish, there’s kind of a dark humor there that comes out of hard times,” MacWatt said. “It’s cold, it’s wet, but I think the Scots as a whole are pretty warm. There’s a hospitality there. You’d always give shelter and the heat of your fireside to a stranger. It’s a small country but it’s got a big heart.” 

Above is the full episode as aired on WUSB’s Country Pocket, including both my interview with Malcolm MacWatt and the songs we discussed, starting with The Church and The Crown, which tells the story of ill-fated rebels in London. The interview begins with the second video in the playlist. You can hear the show live every Monday at 11am on WUSB 90.1 FM or check the blog to watch it as a YouTube playlist. Visit http://www.WUSB.fm and https://www.malcolmmacwatt.com for more.

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Hannah Kaminer’s Heavy on the Vine Explores Her Bargaining Phase

Hannah Kaminer sings about relationships, aging, and more on Heavy on the Vine, but it’s her exploration of bargaining that’s most compelling. Describing no less than salvation as “a bargain, but a hard one,” Kaminer realizes that there are certain deals she’d be willing to make. 

“Heavy on the Vine” sees Kaminer willing to bargain away almost anything for a little more time with a loved one, save for her sense of touch. Instead she comes away with a sense of frustration that she has no one to strike the deal with. 

“I think that when I grew up in the church I was taught resignation and submission as a way to be a good person. But as I’ve gained a sense of agency, I think I do find myself bargaining more. It’s not always rational.”

“Broke Down Girl” is a portrait of a train wreck of a woman latching herself onto a man in a less than healthy way. “I won’t pop your bubble/if you don’t pinch me” is the closest Kaminer comes to allowing one of her bargains to play out, though any details about the man and things play out are left to the listener to imagine. 

“If you’re hurting bad enough, you just want to be lied to. It’s rare that you line up with another person on that unless alcohol is involved. What I was drawn to is that we deceive ourselves just for a little while. I think a lot of relationships start out like that.” 

The sense of desperation was palpable to me, but Kaminer says audience members at her gigs have had a much different reaction to the song. 

“A lot of people will say ‘that song is really sexy.’ I try not to laugh. I almost want to say ‘you just told me a lot about yourself.” 

Irene (It’s a Big Old World) is the lighter version of that hopeless bargaining. There’s absolutely no hope that Irene is looking up from her phone and noticing her admirer but it’s a brisk song that’s played more for laughs than anything else on the album.

Though “The Has-Been” doesn’t mention bargaining, it’s a stunning take on aging or losing steam. As a man looks in the mirror and wonders about his worth, his wife convinces him that instead of a has-been, he’s a has-been-there. It’s the type of corny word play country gold is made of and an absolutely beautiful message about support and value.

“Nostalgia can be a negative emotion but it can be a really positive one as well,” Kaminer said. “In a really sweet love story, you would have the other person to [help you] remember life how it actually was and not how you think it was on your really bad days.” 

It’s exactly the opposite of “Broke Down Girl” in that there’s no fixing anyone or throwing history by the wayside. It’s a song that shows that our worth and our image should come from that history and that healing comes from a love founded in truth. The word play even reflects the idea that as our self worth weakens by seeing an aging body it the mirror it should strengthen through our list of accomplishments. It’s also the sort of hard-won solution that could never be found in a bargain. 

“Wish We Could Talk” ended the album, but it seems like it’s not quite the end to the story. There’s a lot more acceptance in the lyrics than in earlier songs. In whatever dispute the song references, traumas are acknowledged and motivations are presented as reasonable. It’s rational, but it holds out hope for things to change. 

For Kaminer, questioning and hoping and railing against reality is growth. It’s a step away from resignation and submission. If I were writing an album so run through with bargains and questions I think I’d end it on a note of acceptance or a plan to take some action to improve things. But that’s where I am in my life. Kaminer is documenting her own journey and she’s done a fine job of capturing her current mindset. There can be a lot of pain in asking those questions and trying to make those deals, but some worthwhile growth can be painful.

Above is the full episode as aired on WUSB’s Country Pocket, including both my interview with Hannah Kaminer and the songs we discussed, starting with Broke Down Girl, which just isn’t all that sexy. The interview begins with the second video in the playlist. You can hear the show live every Monday at 11am on WUSB 90.1 FM or check the blog to watch it as a YouTube playlist. Visit http://www.WUSB.fm and https://hannahkaminer.com for more.

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Rett Madison Breaks Her Late Mother’s Silence on “One For Jackie”

One For Jackie is a hard listen. It covers a suicide driven in part by childhood sexual trauma and the guilt and pain a surviving daughter is left with. It’s the type of raw and brave album few songwriters even have the opportunity to write. Unfortunately for Rett Madison, the material was all there for her to make the most of. 

Make the most of it she did. Madison’s writing gives flashes of what her mother was like in life, shadowy glimpses at a villain that may have been the primary contributor to her mother’s death, and an extraordinarily honest look at her own guilt and heartache. The fact that the stories are so well written and performed makes them all the more touching. For Madison, it was a unique form of therapy.

“After I lost my mom, as you can imagine, it was a really complicated grieving process,” Madison said. “My mom had struggled for a long time with addiction, with mental illness, and I think some PTSD from some trauma she had survived. I really leaned into songwriting as one of the most instinctive ways I process my emotions.”

Jackie was, according to Madison, a diva in sunglasses and leopard print, chain smoking and laughing her way through life. One of the most relatable moments on the album involves Madison seeing a leopard print shirt at a “Flea Market” and wanting to purchase it for her mother who at that point had passed.  

A less common but equally understandable song is “One For Jackie, One For Crystal,” in which Madison dreams of traveling back in time and killing her mother’s abuser. The violence is graphic and justified. The decision to put out such an intimate and heartbreaking track came down to Madison’s desire to support her mother even though she was no longer alive.

“I think after I unearthed that information I felt a lot of pain for her,” said Madison. “I felt a lot more compassion for her and the struggles that she went through even just raising me. I think less about my extended family when I write those songs and put them out. I think more of giving a voice to my mom’s truth and her story. I don’t want my mom to be silenced. Even though I have my own rage about that situation it’s more about giving power to my mom through performing those songs.”

Almost the entire album focuses on Jackie’s life story or Madison’s reaction to her loss. “Ballet” is the one exception. It’s a joyful tale of falling in love and flourishing under that gaze. 

“The experience of grieving my mom but also falling in love for the very first time happened to be happening simultaneously,” Madison said. “And also my partner played a massive role in helping me work through that grief and also healing me in a lot of ways just with their love.” 

A feeling of guilt is often mentioned, although Madison realizes now that she was not responsible for her mother’s death. Ironically, it was the discovery of her mother’s abuse in old medical records that both brought on a fresh wave of pain and set her free from an existing one. 

“I would say to anyone who’s lost a loved one that way: it isn’t your fault,” said Madison “I think a lot of us are left with no closure or no answers and the thing we do in the moment is turn the pain inwards. Unearthing that information that she was a survivor of childhood sexual abuse released a lot of guilt from my shoulders because I finally realized that my mother’s pain began much earlier than my arrival of her daughter. Obviously it was painful learning that my mother went through that but also having that information freed me in a lot of ways.” 

There’s really no easy way to explain or understand what Rett and Jackie went through unless you’ve experienced some form of it yourself. But for those of us who have, One For Jackie is an essential listen that can help provide closure in a way that few other works of art can. 

Above is the full episode as aired on WUSB’s Country Pocket, including both my interview with Rett Madison and the songs we discussed, starting with Flea Market, which might tell the story of the most emotion anyone’s ever experienced over an ugly shirt. The interview begins with the second video in the playlist. You can hear the show live every Monday at 11am on WUSB 90.1 FM or check the blog to watch it as a YouTube playlist. Visit http://www.WUSB.fm and https://www.rettmadison.com for more.

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Jason Hawk Harris Shares His Beautiful, Painful, Complicated Grief on Thin Places

Thin Places begins with a moment of release. The ashes have been scattered and a storm washes them away. Jason Hawk Harris lost his mother six years ago, but the pain is still fresh. 

“I’d say that the moments where I’d just lose it, those moments are now few and far between,” Harris said. “But I don’t think that that’s an effect of the grief fading, I think that’s just me learning how to live with the loss. You just learn to live with the pain and in the process your heart grows a bit.”

His album is magical. It mixes spirituality and autobiography to detail a long, painful process of making peace with death. From the unexpected but beautiful bass drop on “Jordan and the Nile” to the dancing skeletons on “White Berets,” Harris excels at using unique spiritual imagery and sounds to tell his story. The bulk of the album is autobiographical, taking the listener from a painfully awkward funeral to his finding a reason to move forward in true love. The unexpected decision to fast forward to Harris’ own death and resurrection completes a narrative that may not ever come to a satisfying conclusion and opens a window into some deeply considered spiritual beliefs.

“I love to speculate about this,” Harris said. “I think it makes sense to me that if there is an afterlife, it has to be infinite powers better than the best possible thing that occurs here on Earth. We’d get to hang out for endless hours and talk and chat and smoke and drink and wake up without a hangover.”

“Bring Out The Lillies” is a standout moment in the narrative. It captures the otherworldly awkwardness of losing a close family member and the absolute failure of comforting words and gestures to fill the void. The funeral would almost play as a comedy if not for the depth of the pain.

“Anytime I say that my mother passed, I can tell immediately if this person knows what it feels like or they don’t.” Harris said. “If they don’t, they’ll say a very well intentioned ‘I’m sorry for your loss’ and kind of talk and flop all over themselves. I appreciate it, but at the same time it’s very different if I go up to someone who’s lost a very close family member, because I’ll say ‘I’ve lost my mother’ and they’ll just go ‘Damn. Yeah.'”

“The Abyss” is about an experience relatively unique to Harris. He was able to read his mother’s journals and understand the pain that led her to the addiction that claimed his life. It could’ve easily dragged him into an emotional spiral as well, though it’s all halted by a woman’s smile and presumably love. 

One of the beautiful things about Thin Places is that a grieving listener can find true connection at different points in the album. “Shine A Little Light” is experiencing loss at its most raw and destructive. “Roll” is the beginning of acceptance. “I’m Getting By” is a transition from pain to a hopeful future. “So Damn Good” is the point at which existing relationships begin to fill the spaces left by the loss. A well-chosen cover of “Keep Me In Your Heart For A While” and “White Berets” turn death into an inevitable, beautiful process.

The fact that the jubilant “White Berets” ends with a callback to the start of the album somehow works as more than just a neat ending. Grief comes in waves. You’ve made peace with death and the afterlife and then the pain hits you all over again. And while thinking about a future where your dead body joins the greatest dance party in all of eternity is a nice way to soften the fact that we’re all going to die eventually, there’s still the concern of the here and now for even the most fervent believer. 

As for how to cope with death, I suspect the answer is somewhat like how Harris wrote “Jordan and the Nile” without having a clear understanding of what he was writing.

“It’s something that I’ve never really wanted to fully explain to myself,” said Harris. “I think I want to sit in the mystery of it rather than have a dedicated notion of what it means.”

Dig into the well of religion, philosophy, science or all three, and find something beautiful to hang onto, even if pinpointing the exact rationale and history behind it might dampen the magic.

Above is the full episode as aired on WUSB’s Country Pocket, including both my interview with Jason Hawk Harris and the songs we discussed, starting with Jordan and the Nile, which doesn’t have to have an exact meaning. The interview begins with the second video in the playlist. You can hear the show live every Monday at 11am on WUSB 90.1 FM or check the blog to watch it as a YouTube playlist. Visit http://www.WUSB.fm and https://jasonhawkharris.com for more.

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Optimism and Ties to the Past Define Mikaela Davis and Southern Star’s Genre-Bending Album

Mikaela Davis may have been playing with members of her backing band for the better part of a decade, but “And Southern Star” is the first album they’ve recorded as a group. It’s why she named the genre-defying album for them.

Davis, a harp player, brings something special to their blend of sounds. The harp can be beautiful or haunting, or content to be a little of both as it does on “Cinderella.” But it’s always otherworldly when compared to the average mandolin, piano or guitar found on American roots albums. Starting the album off with those plucking sounds was a fantastic decision that lets listeners know they’re in for something different before the first words are spoken.

“It adds some different textures that other instruments can’t,” Davis said of the instrument she’s been playing since age eight. “I can’t really explain what made me want to play this instrument but I felt connected with the harp pretty much right away.”

Davis studied harp classically in college but wields it more fascinatingly in a popular context. Combine that harp with a whining slide guitar and near constant backing harmonies and the whole album feels like a hazy folk-pop dream. Until it doesn’t. “Don’t Stop Now” is a bit too anthemic to be dreamy and “Leave It Alone” is straight up progressive rock with a significant electric guitar solo. 

“It’s not something intentional,” Davis said of the variety of sounds the band blends and explores on the album. “It’s something that happened because our influences are so vast.” 

As intriguing as the band’s sound is, and it certainly is the most apparent and fascinating part of And Southern Star, the lyrics are also thoughtful collaboration. Two themes emerge. The first is that, for better or worse, there are people and places we’re regularly drawn to, usually based on our formative experiences. It’s both beautiful and a curse according to Davis.

“In my experience everything comes back to your childhood; those are your most informative times in life,” Davis said. “Things that I went through in my childhood, you always come back to those moments.” 

That almost gravitational bond to people and places from the past presents as a struggle to overcome in “One of These Days” and takes on a melancholic form in “Far From You,” even if a glimmer of hope is allowed to exist. In “Promise” it’s a bit more frustrating and even comical as an unfulfilling relationship proves hard to shake. 

The second theme is one of future sighted optimism. Davis is rarely declaring that everything is great, but so many lyrics reflect her belief that it will be. “One of these days I’ll be fine.” “The sun is coming out.” “You will find somebody new.” Even “Don’t Stop Now” looks at long odds as no reason to quit. 

“In life, you just have to have hope no matter what’s happening,” Davis said. “You have to believe that there’s something that’s going to change or how are you going to convince yourself that something you’re working on is worth it?” 

Above is the full episode as aired on WUSB’s Country Pocket, including both my interview with Mikaela Davis and the songs we discussed, starting with Cinderella and those magnificent first harp notes. The interview begins with the second video in the playlist. You can hear the show live every Monday at 11am on WUSB 90.1 FM or check the blog to watch it as a YouTube playlist. Visit http://www.WUSB.fm and https://www.mikaeladavis.com for more.

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J.D. Graham’s Journey from Addiction and Prison to Faith and Sobriety Makes for a Gripping Listen on “A Pound of Rust”

If tragedy and struggles make for good songwriting material, it’s no surprise that J.D. Graham’s album A Pound of Rust is stunning. It opens with the title track, fulled with confessions and unsure thoughts he’s still having in his seventh year of sobriety. It lists crimes and insecurities big and small and the terror that comes with admitting them.

“I always knew back when I made this album that this would be the first song,” Graham explained of the highly confessional first track. “I wanted the listener to know exactly who they were listening to for the entire album. I bare my entire soul.”

Leading with “A Pound of Rust” is a practice Graham has extended to his shows and even speeches in front of recovery groups.

Graham was imprisoned for a DUI that resulted in another man’s death. It was an event that sent him to prison for five years and began his journey to faith and sobriety.

“My sobriety came through my faith in Jesus,” Graham said. “My recovery program is faith-based and I also have an accountability group that I talk to at least biweekly.” 

Some of the album is written from the perspective of a man still in the throws of addiction, others tell stories of users spiraling from a third person perspective. But nothing is as powerful as “Letter From My Conscience,” an extraordinary conversation between the part of Graham that hoped for better and the part that gave into temptation. 

“It came easy because it was the truth,” Graham said of capturing that internal conversation. “I’m constantly evaluating my next move and the choices that I make in real time. My sobriety and my clean living, it’s not something that I just think about a couple times a day. I hold myself personally accountable for every choice I make. Looking back I had every chance to make those changes and for some reason it took a long road to make those changes.” 

Graham credits his recovery to his Christian faith. He  mentions religion briefly in a few songs, though he never fully dives into the topic. He very much lives his faith and his dedication to the recovery community. 

“At shows I always put it out there that if anyone is struggling or needs a ride or just want to talk,” Graham said. “My phone number is on the internet. I never know who’s going to call. So I will answer my phone no matter what the number says on it because it may be some guy I met two months ago who let some of the things I was saying sink in. Maybe he’s got a couple weeks of sobriety and is thinking about picking up again. I was to be there as much as I physically can, even a stranger.”

Graham addresses loss in ways both inspired and direct. “West Virginia,” a song about two people involved in a missed connection missing each other again, is absolutely gorgeous. The story doesn’t have to be true to realize that regret and wondering what could have been with relationships he torpedoed were among the thoughts swirling through Graham’s head as he sobered up in prison. 

“Her Memory” is a touching song about being haunted by loss and “Growin’ Old” is a well-written look at a man who’s seeing himself age and degrade while watching the world around him change in ways he doesn’t understand. Long time listeners will probably guess based on my politics that I don’t share Graham’s nostalgia for when public schools led students in prayer, but it’s not hard to sympathize with him as a man who is getting more out of his faith right now than any other subject he was taught. English composition probably checks in at a close second.

Luckily, the news is not all bad. Graham seems genuinely happy with how life has gone since he’s sobered up and gotten out. 

“I’m a different person, so thinks I normalized back in the day make me feel uneasy now,” Graham said. “Coming out of prison, sober for the first time in my life, it’s almost like being reborn. Doing a lot of touring, I’ve been to some of these places before but I have no recollection of them. I’m seeing things that I’ve already seen before but for the first time in my life. It’s a beautiful thing.” 

He’s especially happy with how well making amends has been going and the progress he’s made in relationships with his family. 

“Every single one of them is better,” he said of those connections. “I had a lot of amends to make when I got out of prison. I went down the list and called them up and met up with some of them for lunch and apologized and continued my real life confessional. Now I have healthy relationships with boundaries.” 

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Brian Kalinec Explores Appreciation and Aspiration on The Beauty of It All

Brian Kalinec is perhaps as close to the definition of a traditional folk singer as you can get. His songs are earnest and lyrical with sparse accompaniment aside from guitar and a piano. In an increasingly hostile and cynical climate, his reflections on racial progress and his friendship with his neighbor Henry seems downright quaint. But sometimes, especially in these times, it’s nice to hear a thoughtful piece about moving in the right direction.

“I was born into the change, but there was a lot of resistance to that change,” Kalinec said of watching the Civil Rights Act become law. “We’ve come a long way, but there are people who would like to see us go back to what they consider to be the good old days.”

Kalenic doesn’t exactly have his blinders on. He’s well aware of some of the regressive trends in education and muses on another track as to whether it’s possible for this country to become less polarized. He doesn’t answer the question except to say making improvements is worth a try. Speaking with me, a younger millennial, Kalenic indicated that he holds out hope for my generation. 

“My daughter went to school with kids of many different backgrounds and cultures and colors and she doesn’t see herself as special,” Kalinec said. “But when I was a kid, that demarkation was there.”

Much like finding hope in this news cycle, many tracks on The Beauty of it All are about extracting the joy from life, even if it is at times “aspirational.” The title track, in particular, shines with optimism despite recognizing that the singer has lived more of his life than not.

“As I get a little older, I recognize that I need to be a little more aware of everything, especially be more present,” Kalinec said. “I always want to be more present for family and friends, but also appreciate the beauty of the world.” 

In addition to the title track, Fix-It Man provides a particularly endearing look at an older man appreciating life despite some of the hardships that come with age. Big Hearted continues the trend of aspirational thinking and learning from younger, kinder viewpoints. Breakfast at Midnight is, if not the healthiest idea, then certainly a joyful one. 

If most songs deliver those messages in a simple, positive way, Two Roads provides the gut punch. A young woman with big dreams dies young after guiding an alcoholic neighbor to sobriety. Part of making the most of life is understanding it could end at any moment. Kalinec provides narration that he, like most people, aren’t trying to save the world or numb the pain. We’re just managing money and time. 

“We all think when we’re younger that we’re [going to save the world] and I guess some people are a little more successful at that than others,” Kalinec said. “The important thing is that we save our own worlds. That’s probably the most that we can do.” 

If that sort of reminder doesn’t help his listeners live a little more purposefully, I’m not sure what will.

Above is the full episode as aired on WUSB’s Country Pocket, including both my interview with Brian Kalinec and the songs we discussed, starting with The Beauty Of It All, which is the aspirational title track. The interview begins afterward. You can hear the show live every Monday at 11am on WUSB 90.1 FM or check the blog to watch it as a YouTube playlist. Visit http://www.WUSB.fm and http://www.briankalinec.com for more.

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On “Katherine,” Neev Plays With Voices Both Petulant and Graceful

Scottish folk singer Neev’s debut album “Katherine” is guided by clearly expressed deep thought. Many songs are reflections on relationships and the self. In most cases, those relationships or the character in the song aren’t in the healthiest of states. In some cases, the reflections aren’t the healthiest either.

“Fast Patterns” sees the a character struggling with a friend growing more distant. Instead of making some effort to reconcile, the song is a full on attack and a promise to make that friend change. It’s a last ditch overreaction that seems destined to doom whatever remains between the two.

“When I wrote that song, it was coming from a really ignorant and self centered voice,” Neev explained. “Every single line in the verse starts with ‘I think.’ If anyone’s coming from that point of view, there’s no agreement to be had. It’s me criticizing that voice. You’re never going to hold that person accountable because you’re not even thinking of them.” 

“Fast Patterns” isn’t the only time Neev criticizes unhealthy thoughts by expressing them, though it’s certainly the most effective. Other songs find effectiveness through more earnest expression and analysis. 

“The House” captures a relationship in a place where home no longer feels like a haven e and it seems like every move either party makes is just digging that metaphorical hole deeper and deeper. Neev imagined the central character as a 60s housewife (she’s from the UK; perhaps think 50s for American context) in search of liberation. 

“The character no longer feels home to be a safe place because they now feel it’s a place of repression,” Neev said. “It’s almost too small for them.”

Her observation is quite accurate. Nothing makes a space feel smaller than being trapped in it or sharing it with someone you’re uneasy around.

Neev’s voice is earthy and tender, something her instrumental arrangements match quite well. Both soft strumming and soaring strings work, though the understated sounds are much more common and hypnotic.

One song, “Without Warmth,” is truly special in terms of capturing healthy, rational, but emotional thoughts from the end of a relationship. The vulnerability and reflections on what’s failed are there, but the central character is able to frame the breakup as a gift and easing of burdens to the person their in a relationship with, and perhaps themselves. 

“The baggage that comes with spending time and having experiences with a person is that you feel like you have to hold onto those things in really petulant way even if the way you’re holding onto them might not be useful,” Neev said. “Bottom line, kindness and love are the most important things here, so how do we move forward knowing that?”

The fact that much of the album comes from a less healthy perspective makes gems like this and “Out of the Blue” mean even more. Moments of clarity somehow seem more valuable than clarity itself. Ending the relationship on kind, appreciative terms with well wishes and acknowledgment of the difficulties is the perfect way to end the album. It may be more of a dream breakup than a realistic one, but it’s incredible to experience something so nourishing, even if it may only be possible through well-written songs like these.

Above is the full episode as aired on WUSB’s Country Pocket, including both my interview with Neev and the songs we discussed, starting with Fast Patterns, which toxically describes how another person has become toxic. The interview begins afterward. You can hear the show live every Monday at 11am on WUSB 90.1 FM or check the blog to watch it as a YouTube playlist. Visit http://www.WUSB.fm and https://neev1.bandcamp.com for more.